My first Father’s Day without him….. MISS YOU DADDY! Wow it seems crazy that it’s been nine months since he passed. There haven’t been that many days that have gone by that I’ve not thought of him. I think about all kinds of things, I even have dreams of him. It seems that all those life lessons that he taught me are engrained in me even more than before!
I see myself in him ALL THE TIME! Being a business woman now and learning how to work harder than I’ve ever worked before, I find myself at it every second I get. I work first thing in the morning, then I work out, then I work again until it’s finally time to go in the kitchen and eat dinner with my sweet husband. Then it’s right back to work again until it’s time to go to bed. In other words it’s my nature TO WORK HARD.
Working hard was one of the lessons my daddy taught me. My mom used to always call him a WORK HORSE. That meant that he had a hard time coming in from working in the yard to relax, or eat, or sleep! He worked from sun-up to sun-down….. NO KIDDING! There are so many days that I see this same characteristic in myself! Working hard and accomplishing the tasks before me gives me such satisfaction! Hmmmmm…. I’m sure that came from him!
I wanted to post the picture above WITH my mother in it. I’ve posted a cropped version of just me and my dad, but as I thought about it……. my mother was his second half! They were one! They were like peanut butter and jelly, or like cookies and milk! They were BOTH the light I looked to when life was hard…. even if they didn’t know it, and most of the time they didn’t.
I remember my mom telling me once right before my daddy passed, that he had woken up in the middle of the night and asked her if she was awake. He proceeded to tell her that I was in trouble and that I needed help. She assured him I was ok and he asked how she knew. My mom said that I had told her. He was able to relax and went back to his sleep. I can just imagine why he was worried, and just knowing that, means so much to me. Even to the end he wanted the best for me, he wanted me to be safe, and to have a wonderful life. I’m forever grateful that he had the chance to meet my wonderful husband and to witness our marriage.
Another one of the greatest gifts my dad gave me, was a Father’s Blessing. I had gone to him during a very troubled time, and asked if he could do this for me. He was very hesitant because at that time he had a very hard time communicating what he was thinking because of his tumor. I assured him that whatever he would say, would be PERFECT….. and it was. I will treasure that moment forever!
For those that don’t know, he passed just thirteen days after I got married. WHAT A BLESSING that he was there! I MISS YOU DADDY and LOVE YOU SO MUCH and am THANKFUL you taught me how to be a WORK HORSE! 🙂